Reset, Refocus, Restart

A little over a week ago was my birthday. I turned 44 on December 7. Something that was significantly different this year compared to previous years? My mindset. You know how you want to blame others or circumstances for why you are in the place you are in, in your life? Yeah, I was one of those people who’d blame others and didn’t take full responsibility for my own actions. As an example, the men I’ve dealt with in hopes of having a relationship. I was the common denominator.

It’s actually difficult to admit when typing this even though I accepted it when I realized what was going on.

The reason why I had bad experiences with the men I chose, was simply that. I chose them. I didn’t pay attention to red flags. Didn’t pay attention to bad habits. Didn’t focus on the misalignment to my purpose.

I had a lot of unresolved, deep seated traumas that I hadn’t realized were still there. And in some cases, didn’t realize were there at all. With everything I’ve gone through, my constant prayer has always been that I will be able to help just one. Just ONE person to remove themselves from a situation, or learn the signs and not be in the situation in the first place.